Already?

Patrick wrote again. This time he asked for more pictures and I sent them. We sent some emails back and forth. He was still a little dirty but not as much. He said he was having some fantasies about me, but thankfully he didn't tell me what they were.

I don't understand how he can be having erotic thoughts about a person he hardly knows. Doesn't he want to get to know me first before he decides he wants to do me? Does my personality even matter? And what if I smell bad, or what if I'm constantly scratching my can? It just seems like his conversation is moving faster than is warranted.

I think Brian and I talked about sex pretty early on, like in our first phone conversation, but it was just sex in general, not sex with each other. I'm still trying to figure out what the difference is. It's probably that we met in person and had had some small talk conversation walking to the parking lot after work before he asked for my phone number. I'll admit I had had erotic thoughts about him before we talked, but I didn't tell him that. Perhaps it's that openness I'm not used to. Patrick can have all the thoughts he wants; he doesn't have to share them with me. But I think we all know it's unlikely I'll have the nerve to tell him to pipe down. I'll just continue to ignore the embarrassing parts.