Back on His good side

I went to Confession today. It's been a long time, about 4 months. I had been avoiding it because I knew I was actively pursuing 'getting some.' I knew I couldn't honestly say the part of the Act of Contrition that says "I firmly resolve to avoid the near occasion of sin." Hell, I was actively pursuing the "near occasion of sin!"

I met with Father Philip a couple of weeks ago to discuss what I should do. I really like him. He is one of the people I had in mind when I wrote "Good priests" in the Heroes section of my myspace page. Anyway, he reminded me that the full line in the prayer says "I firmly resolve, with the help of [God's] grace, ..." He said I should go to confession seeking God's grace to avoid the sin. I should look at it as going there to get help, not going to say, "I did this thing, but now I'm perfect."

Now, I get to receive communion again. That is going to be so nice. I wouldn't receive if there was a chance I'd be 'doing it' anytime soon. Father Philip said as long as I'm not actively planning to commit the sin, I can receive. So since it'll be at least a few months before I'm even considering it, I think it's okay.