Strangely silent

I haven't blogged in a while, and I'm not sure why. I think I got into a habit of blogging about crises, and thankfully I'm not having any with Chet. Things are going extremely well. We have been seeing each other about 3 times a week since the start. It's fantastic.

Do you know what he said to me on Monday? "Tomorrow's our anniversary." I know!! What guy remembers that kind of stuff? He is so sweet. On Tuesday he sent me a sweet email saying happy anniversary and how glad he is that we met.

The best part of our relationship is the ease with which it is proceeding. I'm not all panicky and worried. Sure, there's the chance it could tank. But for some reason, I'm not really concerned. I'm able to enjoy this for what we have now.

He says he wants to stay single until after the first of the year. Yet he says he knows he's not really single. He's not interested in seeing anyone else and wouldn't feel right dating other people. I'm not even freaked out by that. I know that it will work itself out. Either he'll decide he wants a girlfriend, and I'm it; he'll decide he wants a girlfriend, and I'm not it; he'll decide he doesn't want a girlfriend; I'll decide I don't want him for a boyfriend; or I'll get tired of waiting for him to decide. I'm amazed at myself that I'm not anxious about the outcome.

I have no idea where this "whatever happens, happens" attitude has come from, but I'm loving it. Everything is so easy. I'm not afraid to call him. I'm not a wreck if he hasn't called. (Okay, I was a wreck once when he didn't email me his standard good morning message. Turns out there was a glitch somewhere. I got the message about an hour after he sent it.) I'm not jealous if he goes out without me. This is most relaxed and best relationship I've been in.